Day 36

There's a cigar in my office. It's been kicking about there for almost three years. At one time there were five of them but now only one remains. What a waste it would be to have that cigar sit there in a house full of non smokers. I have a plan for that poor cigar. I like to set myself milestones and get little rewards when I achieve each. Next Thursday I have an appointment with the doc. Next Weekend I'm going to treat myself to that cigar.

In spite of what I've said above, I'm getting pretty used to this no-smoking lark. Now that I have a reward to look forward to it will probably be even easier. It's just the way my twisted brain works. Chances are that by next weekend I wont even want the cigar but, it's not so much having the cigar as, being allowed to have the cigar, that counts. Am I nuts?

No major plans for the weekend so tomorrow I'm just going to kick back and chill. My garden still shows signs of the worst ravages of winter so I may get a brush out and start clearing but, maybe not. We'll see how I feel. I've actually got to a point where I don't need to keep busy every minute to keep my mind off smoking. That in itself is a good sign. I'd almost washed all the paint off the car.

Also, last night I had a dream. I only mention it because, regular readers will already know, I don't ever remember dreams. I don't remember all the detail and what I do remember doesn't exactly make sense however it was a dream and I do remember having it. That's as near to a side effect as I've ever had. Watch this space to see if it becomes a recurrent theme.

Well past bedtime now. I fell asleep in front of the TV earlier. Shows how good the program was. I didn't want to miss a post though so thought I'd get it in before bed.

Night night world. see you in the morning.